It's been


since my father committed suicide.
I found his body.
I was 15.

This is my story.

DadMy Dad circa 1983
MeMe 2015
38 Comments. Leave a comment


  1. Unkie Luke
    June 03, 2015

    Good work Brenaldo, I’m very proud of you. Keep on keeping on ACTION BRONSON

  2. Amanda
    June 03, 2015

    So proud of you Bren. I know Dad would be too. We will never forget that day. What amazing maturity and strength you have drawn from one of the most traumatic experiences a person could ever have. Keep letting your light shine. You are already making a difference.
    Love you. Aunty A.

  3. Unkie Luke
    June 03, 2015

    I’m not sure if that worked? Bloody interwebs. Hi everybody

    • Brendan McDonnell
      June 04, 2015

      HAHAHAHA thanks uncle Luke

    • Annette Pretty
      June 04, 2015

      Hi Luke

  4. Liam Martin
    June 04, 2015

    Great stuff bren! Keep living it up

  5. Cassie Evans
    June 04, 2015

    Beautifully written Brendan,
    Glad to see you living the dream in Malta :)

  6. Annette Pretty
    June 04, 2015

    Good on you Brendon. I too have been touched personally by suicide and I applaud your efforts to raise awareness and hopefully remove the taboo, the stigma surrounding this subject. It needs to be talked about, out loud as you have done in the hope that more people will talk about it and recognise some of the signs and not be afraid to talk to or tell someone if they are worried about somebody <3

  7. Christo
    June 04, 2015

    Hey mate given I’ve only known you for not that long I guess I had no idea what you’ve been through since your teens….you’re a good fella and no doubt he would be proud of the person you’ve become!!! Good to see you so cheery and enjoying life over there!!

  8. Debbie Mcdonnell
    June 05, 2015

    You finally did it mate,well done. Feeling so proud of you. I know you have work so long on making this website, I shed many tears last night thinking about your dad and my three sons. Your dad would be so proud if he was here. It was a very sad hard time for use all, especially you finding your dad. You have shown everyone that reads your blogs, that with wisdom, strength and a loving heart you can get through it. In all aspects of your life you have excelled, love you lots Ma xxx

    • Brendan McDonnell
      June 05, 2015

      Thanks a lot Ma love you lots you little gem

  9. Robyn Parker
    June 05, 2015

    So proud of you. No words can say. From a small boy we used to feed ice-cream to with your Dad by your side.
    Now you are him, and he is you.
    By seeing this powerful stuff you give me hope that I can become sane again. We all need your mental strength, inspiration and encouragement.
    Our Adam , my son has gone just recently through mental health, it feels like 12 days, sometimes 12 hours, sometimes 12 minutes, Not 12 months and 20 days. This is excruciatingly hard – no words can say.
    I am extremely glad you have found words ,
    You are a Leader so Lead the way.
    Thanks Brendan, more than LOVE from the Parker family, Robyn, Dave, Bradley and the energy of our Adam.
    Love your guts inside and out.

    • Brendan McDonnell
      June 05, 2015

      I’m very happy that my writing found you Robyn. Thanks for your words they are beautiful. I hope you’re ok and pushing forward. Lots of love to you and the Parkers.
      And thanks for all the ice-creams haha I remember! :)

  10. Peter
    June 09, 2015

    Brendan,I work with Rhys in Adelaide,he told me to check out your website,very well done anyone who has lost anyone will be able to relate to your writings in some way.You are a grounded and inspirational young guy..

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